I want to quote couple of statements (which are very encouraging points) from the article (Did Jesus experience "doubt" and "fear"?) by Denny Burk:
"In the Bible, doubt and fear are sins. In fact, Jesus Himself describes doubt as the opposite of faith (Matt. 14:31; 21:21; Mark 11:23). In very explicit terms, Jesus himself commands his disciples not to “fear” those who persecute them (Matt. 10:26, 28, 31). No less than seven times, Jesus himself commands his disciples not to be “anxious” about their lives (Matt. 6:25, 31, 34; Mark 10:19; 13:11; Luke 12:11, 22). And then of course, Jesus’ half brother James had this to say about doubt:
James 1:6-8- The one who doubts is like the surf of the sea driven and tossed by the wind. 7 For let not that man expect that he will receive anything from the Lord, 8 being a double-minded man, unstable in all his ways.
To say that Jesus had doubts and fears is to make him into a transgressor. But that is not at all the biblical depiction of Jesus. Yes, Jesus can sympathize with all of our weaknesses and, yes, he was tempted in all things as we are. But He did it without sin! (Heb. 4:15)
What was amazing and spectacular about Jesus’ suffering is that he never doubted His Father, and he never feared man. “When he suffered, he did not threaten, but continued entrusting himself to him who judges justly” (1 Pet. 2:23). Not only that, the Bible says that Jesus was motivated by joy to endure the cross:
Hebrews 12:2 Let us fix our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy set before him endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God.
Jesus knew how awful the crucifixion would be before it happened (Matt. 16:21). There’s a reason that He prayed, “If it is possible, let this cup pass from Me” (Matt. 26:39). The anguish of the cross was real, and He knew it. Nevertheless, the Bible teaches that Jesus’ vision never stalled-out on death. Jesus saw right through the cross to the resurrection on the other side. You and I may fear death, but Jesus never did. You and I may doubt God’s purposes in suffering, but Jesus never did. Ever! What was definitive for Jesus was the joy set before Him, not death.
Imagine that. Jesus knew that they would tear His skin from His body, that they would nail Him to a post, and that He would asphyxiate while enduring cruel pain. He knew that He would be betrayed and forsaken by His best friends. He even knew that the cup of God’s wrath would be poured out on Him in full (Isaiah 53:10; Matt. 27:46). Yet He never feared man or doubted God. He was all courage and all love all the time. If you worship the Jesus of the Bible, that is the Savior that you worship.
The model that Jesus gives us is not that he had doubts and fears like we do. The model that He gives us is perfection. We don’t ever have to give in to doubt and to fear. Doubt and fear have no place in those who are trusting in the promises of the God who resurrects from the dead, and they certainly never had any place in Jesus.
So let’s be jealous for what Jesus accomplished for us. He was tempted in every way as we are, yet He was without sin! He was obedient to His Father, even to the point of death on a bloody cross (Phil. 2:8). He never gave up, never lost heart, never flagged in zeal. And neither must we. We can take heart. Where you and I have failed, Jesus has overcome. Indeed Jesus has overcome the world! (John 16:33)" (end of quote)
That was a wonderful reminder of how we too need to look past our current sufferings in the present world and instead onto our future glorification and exaltation. Evil people around us have the tendency to make us feel inadequate (education level not high enough, criticizing us for a low end job, criticizing us for our looks, criticizing us for our wealth, etc.). Remember that Jesus was a nobody to the world when He was on earth. He was a carpenter by profession. He wasn't part of the "kool" group/elite group and women weren't flocking around Him. When He started His ministry, people in His own hometown of Nazareth rejected Him saying that He was only a carpenter boy they knew from the past. The world has been blinded by Satan and his demons. That's why the world also acts like narcissistic sociopaths (full of pride and ready to cut down/tear down others psychologically). In reality, their inner character is nothing but trash (despite how they portray themselves on the outside). Christ humbled Himself to accept His unfavorable environment on earth (living in poverty), even though He is the Son of God and He created everything. He humbled Himself because He knew God will exalt Him in due time for His humility. More importantly, He wanted to set an example for us so that we would leave the destructive path of narcissistic sociopathy that the devil wants to entrap us in. He wanted to teach us also that if we humble ourselves in this life, God would exalt us to a much higher position in eternity (i.e. co-inheritors with Christ and seated along with Him at the right hand of God the Father). We will be exalted in power and glory far above all of our tormentors (Satan, his demons, and evil human beings). Jesus now is the King of kings and Lord of lords. Hence, we will share in His glory and power. Those who insult and humiliate us now have only the power to do so now. Once, such evil people die, they will become weak (they will no longer dominate us) and they will be punished in the lake of fire and burning sulfur for all of eternity while we who suffered are exalted far above them enjoying peace, happiness and prosperity in the new earth and new heaven. When we suffer at the hands of evil people who mistreat us in this world, remember Christ went through the same thing and He never gave up as He looked at His prize that God the Father would give Him- future exaltation, glory, power, and dominion. Hence, we should look through our sufferings and onto the prize awaiting us which we are to share with Jesus Christ. (refer to Isaiah 14:9-11; Romans 8:17; Hebrews 12:1-3; Isaiah 65:17-25; Revelation 21:1-7).
Whenever you face fears/doubts/worries/anxiety about your life in this world, learn to recognize that it is Satan and his demons working through the world around you to attack you with their spiritual flaming arrows designed to destroy you mentally/spiritually. In order to defend against their spiritual weapons, you must take up the armor of God (refer to Ephesians 6:10-18). You need the "shield of faith" to defend against the fiery darts of fears/doubts/worry/anxiety. As your offensive weapon, you also need the "Sword of the Spirit" which is the word of God (Scripture aka the Holy Bible) to fight back against Satan, his demons, and the evil people in this world they use to attack your mind (it's psychological warfare). When you are tormented by any negative thought, the Body of Christ is being attacked also. Remind evil spirits of that truth. That should instill fear in them as they are messing with Christ's body. Hence, when they try to instill fear in you, you can instill fear back in them as they all fear God. Their main strategy is trying to throw you off balance continuously by taking your mind off of God. Our tendency is for us to sink in fear even when we think we are standing strong in God. If you sink in fear, it means you're not standing strong in God as you lack faith. You fight fear with faith. Thus, if you want to remain unshakable, you must have an unshakable faith even when Satan, his demons, and the world around you tries to instill fear in you (think of it as them throwing objects of fear at you but you standing fast by faith and knocking down everything they throw at you). God's word can be used a psychological weapon against the minds of Satan, his demons, and human sociopaths when they wage a psychological/spiritual warfare against you. When they torment your mind, respond back to them by saying, "I'll show you God's power." Even though God allows us to be tempted, God has promised you that Satan will flee if you resist him. This is a law/order which Satan and his demons have to follow. Resisting anything requires strength. To resist a powerful and invisible being like Satan, you must derive you power and strength from God (i.e. His word).
James 4:7 (NLT):
"So humble yourselves before God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you."
I've learned to see the word of God like a lightsaber (like in Star Wars). For a Jedi, the lightsaber is their life (without it, they can't fight and make themselves vulnerable to attacks). Similarly, we must treat the word of God as our life- the very source which is so powerful that it created the world as we know it (both visible and invisible to us) and is the very power which sustains us. When evil people in this world try to take take your hope and joy away, respond back with the word of God. Don't be afraid to do that. In the process, they are exposed to God's word which is very powerful as it can psychologically/spiritually impact them (refer to Hebrews 4:12 and Isaiah 55:10-13). Know that people will try to silence you, ridicule you, and threaten you when you respond with the word of God. That's because they don't belong to God. Anyone who loves God and truly belongs to God will tolerate God's word (even if it produces guilt in them to turn away from their evil behavior). However, those who hate God and don't belong to God don't want to hear anything which produces guilt in them calling for change (metanoia), as they want to continue in their evil behavior. They are the children of the devil (refer to John 8:42-47 , 1 John 3:3-24, Mark 9:42). There are even carnal "Christians" out there (the weeds planted by the devil) who try and destroy their fellow Christians (by instilling fears/doubts into their lives). Watch out and stay away from such vipers. They are terrorists (as terrorists spread fear).
Remember this truth also- God has raised us up with Jesus Christ and seated us with Him in the heavenly realms in Christ Jesus (refer to Ephesians 2:6-7). Each of us (genuine believers) compose the Body of Christ. Jesus Christ is now the King of kings and Lord of lords (He outranks every human leader on earth as well as every ruler in the spiritual realm). Hence, we are able to share in His power, glory, and dominion. This requires us to be humble and respect both human and spiritual authorities. True power (i.e. spiritual power) is not about having bodyguards/Secret Service agents, a powerful military at your disposal, political power, economic power, etc. (which empower human political leaders). True power is all about humility, servant-hood, love, and self-control. This is what was seen in Jesus Christ while He was on earth. He set the example of what true leadership and power is about and that's why He's been exalted/promoted by God the Father as the King of kings and Lord of lords. It's in contrast to the narcissistic sociopathy (consisting of conceit and domination) seen in human leaders today. I challenge you to practice this spiritual type of true power in your earthly life (ex. school, college, workplace, church, etc.) and see how God will lift you up in due time if you would only humble yourself. Satan and his demons like to make us think we're weak and not significant (a nobody) unless we have roles of power and influence on earth. These are lies as part of their psychological warfare. Don't be deceived by them. They love to create strife between humans by doing such vile and shrewd things. Through Christ, you have authority over Satan and his demons in their evil agendas against you. Through Christ, you are also seated along with Him at the right hand of God the Father. Thus, no human nor any spiritual being (besides God) outranks you. Learn to take advantage of that blessing so that you conquer every problem you face on this earth (refer to Luke 10:17-19). Exercise the authority and power you receive from Christ to conquer and remove all of your problems in life. Demonic spirits are responsible for attacking you with fear, anxiety, depression, covetousness, lust, envy, hatred, etc. Demonic spirits/rulers also influence humans around you to be evil towards you to create problems in your life (refer to Ephesians 6:12). You want to experience real divine power against your spiritual enemies? Make them submit to YOU in the name of Jesus Christ. When you face evil people in this world, stay calm and be aware that evil rulers and authorities of the unseen world (spiritual realm) are working through them. Thus, your fight ultimately isn't against humans, rather it is up against spiritual beings which you can't even see with your physical eyes. Stand fast! Don't be intimidated by their psychological warfare. Reach out and get hold of God's armor that He has prepared for you. Remember, God is the Most High and thus the most powerful. All of these evil rulers and authorities in the spiritual realm have to submit themselves under the authority of God (God outranks them and is much more powerful than them). God wants you to fight back as His own children in a wise and non-violent manner using His armor and power. If someone hurts you physically, you can always go to higher human authorities (which God has placed and they are also under His authority) for assistance. However, for plain psychological warfare, human authorities will likely not be of any assistance. That's where you have to depend on God and the armor He gives you to fight back in a psychological and spiritual manner. God's power is greater than the power of fear and any other negative thought that tries to mentally enslave/imprison you.
Focus. FOCUS! Use God's power. Look through God's power (put on your spiritual glasses and switch on your spiritual vision). Picture in your mind of yourself conquering every obstacle you are facing in your life which is standing in your way from achieving your goals/dreams. Everyone has the tendency to see such obstacles as unfair and be discouraged by them. Unfortunately, we live in a fallen world where you won't always receive fairness and justice from the world (battles and wars in this world are not based on fairness). However, that's where God can step in and make a difference in your life, especially when the odds are stacked up against you. Picture yourself also succeeding in achieving ALL of your goals/dreams. This is what faith is all about. As humans, our weak minds (weakened by our sinful nature) causes us to doubt in things which we can't see/perceive. Many times when we see the obstacles in our lives remaining there and not removed, we become fearful and doubt if we can achieve our goals/dreams. Also when we can't see our goals/dreams already before our eyes, we have the tendency to doubt if it's possible to achieve them. Faith in God is the only antidote for fear. You must keep reminding yourself, "I will succeed because God has promised me that He will help me" (refer to Hebrews 13:5-6 and Isaiah 41:10). God's promises from His word (the Holy Bible) brings faith to us (refer to Romans 10:17) in the midst of fears/doubts. All you need to do then is exercise/practice that faith in your heart, mind, and through your actions. You must confidently tell yourself as well as others (who doubt you and instill fear in you), "I know God will be faithful to me! I'm sure about this!" You will need to keep practicing saying that to yourself because Satan, his demons, the world around you, and your enemy within your own body (your sinful nature) will all be battling to destroy you faith and bring fear into your mind- all in order to paralyze your mind from setting out to do what is needed to succeed (Satan can attack you with fears/doubts as part of his gaslighting strategy). The world around you will never give you peace and hope. Jesus Himself taught this important lesson in the Bible (refer to John 14:27 and John 16:33). The world only gives us trouble instead of peace because all humans have a sinful nature which makes them corrupt/evil. If you look around you (especially what you see in the media/news), everything is designed as psychological warfare against you. A common thing you see in the news today is the spread of fears/doubts about the future (possible nuclear wars, economic crash, job security, etc.). Many times, nothing bad even happens according to people's predictions. In the process, this allows you to recognize other types of terrorists around you. Today's politicians and leaders are experts at pointing fingers at religious extremists as terrorists. However, they are no different as they are also guilty of their own narcissistic sociopathic agendas for power and domination. They use fear to manipulate their fellow citizens especially when elections come. Thus, they themselves are terrorists as they spread fear (terror) for their own agendas, just like religious extremists. Thus, don't ever trust politicians/powerful people, celebrities, the media, analysts, nor any other human. Trust only in God and His promises to protect you and sustain you. Today's media (ex. news, TV shows, movies, music, video games, etc.) are all designed to be modes of psychological warfare waged against you to manipulate you. The world today is interested in geopolitics and geostrategy. They even think these things will help them combat terrorism. The problem is that geopolitics and geostrategy revolves around greed/selfishness, envy, hatred, theft, and killing others to get what people want (refer to James 4:1-3). Like I mentioned before, the Bible teaches that all humans have a sinful nature which causes them to be corrupt. Therefore, geopolitics and geostrategy are not the solution for sin-which is the root of all problems in the world (including terrorism). The solution for sin is only available by salvation through Jesus Christ. I'd recommend you understanding more about psychological warfare (PSYWAR/PSYOPS) so that you won't be deceived by people around you. To get a basic understanding, refer to Wikipedia ("Psychological warfare"). People around you will insult you, discourage you, and instill fear/hopelessness in you. That's where God's word is your life saver. Refer to the verses below.
Psalm 34:4-10 (NLT):
"I prayed to the Lord, and he answered me.
He freed me from all my fears.
5 Those who look to him for help will be radiant with joy;
no shadow of shame will darken their faces.
6 In my desperation I prayed, and the Lord listened;
he saved me from all my troubles.
7 For the angel of the Lord is a guard;
he surrounds and defends all who fear him.
8 Taste and see that the Lord is good.
Oh, the joys of those who take refuge in him!
9 Fear the Lord, you his godly people,
for those who fear him will have all they need.
10 Even strong young lions sometimes go hungry,
but those who trust in the Lord will lack no good thing."
John 16:33 (NLT):
I have told you all this so that you may have peace in me. Here on earth you will have many trials and sorrows. But take heart, because I have overcome the world.”
John 14:27 (NLT):
“I am leaving you with a gift—peace of mind and heart. And the peace I give is a gift the world cannot give. So don’t be troubled or afraid.
Learn to tune out the voice of your spiritual enemies who tempt you to sin, including fearing and doubting things regarding your life/future (ex. Satan, demons, your own sinful nature, and wicked people around you). Instead, tune in to God's voice (refer to John 10:1-21). Remember, the example of sheep (as given in the clip below). Sheep only tune in and listen to the voice of their human shepherd. They ignore everyone else's voice. As humans, we also have a Great Shepherd. God is our Shepherd. We must learn from the sheep (animals) to tune into God's voice and ignore all other voices which tempt us into sin (fear and doubts are sins as you are reluctant to live by faith in God to take care of you and your future).
Worship only God and give Him thanks. This will prevent your mind from becoming dark, confused (refer Romans 1:21-24), and enslaved to sin. Jesus also emphasized much on inner purity today which even many Christians (i.e. carnal Christians) ignore today. Our psychological and spiritual power to succeed against sin and the ability to succeed in our education/careers starts with taming our thoughts (refer to Mark 7:20-23). Many times, I've wished that I could be like the Jedi who were empowered by the Force in the fictional universe of Star Wars. God helped me realize that He is the real Force (power) that exists today and He wants to empower us. Thus, take heart (be encouraged) by the truth that the Holy Spirit can empower you to overcome everything you face in life (ex. sins, problems which seem impossible to overcome) if you will allow Him to come and live in you (refer to John 14:15-17).
Do you want to know what the most powerful weapon a human can ever wield? It's faith. Faith in turn unleashes God's power. People run to food, drinks, entertainment, medication, alcohol, smoking, drug abuse, etc. to try and bring relief to their psychological problems like fear and depression. They learn the hard way that none of those things are a permanent solution. You only get a temporary relief/euphoria from such things, but then you find yourself at square 1- the thoughts of fear and depression come back to torment you again. That's what happens when you misplace your faith in such things (in our human weakness, we are prone to running to things of this world and misplacing our faith in them to deliver us). You will also receive harmful effects from depending on such things (ex. addictions, obesity, etc.). Hence, you need a psychological and spiritual shield to defend yourself (physical objects are useless in a psychological warfare taking place in your mind) that will not harm you in any way. The Bible teaches that a spiritual shield exists which is effective against fear- it's called faith in God! When the disciples were gripped fear against a raging storm they faced, Jesus responded, "Where is your faith?" (refer to Luke 8:25)
At another instance, Jesus also emphasized again the importance of faith (refer to Luke 18:8). It teaches us that God is looking for people who have unshakable faith in Him no matter what problems they face. When you are overwhelmed with fear/anxiety, do the following things (refer to Psalm 34:1-4):
(1). Praise Him constantly and consistently no matter how discouraged or hopeless you feel.
(2). Pray to God to deliver you. Tell the Lord, that you trust Him that He will deliver you.
(3). Get rid of sin (ex. lust and other evil desires) that may be giving access to demonic oppression/possession in your life. Lust [in the form of watching porn (as well as any watching any other source of lust like movies and TV shows which have non-hardcore sex like sensual kissing and foreplay), sexual fantasies, masturbation, sexual intercourse] can be the gateway for demons to enter your mind and body to attack you with fears/doubts.
When fears come into your life, learn to transform them into faith. That's what makes a you real superhero! In the past, I've depended on God to deliver me from impossible situations. In His mercy and faithfulness, He saw the injustices I had faced which in turn trapped me in such impossible situations, and therefore He delivered me. Even though I depended on God and believed that He had the power to deliver me, I later realized that I lacked faith- i.e. it was difficult for me to believe that God would deliver me because I couldn't see in the present of the future event of God having already delivered me. We all face this problem because we tend to base our faith on what we see in the present time (evidence based reasoning). However, I've noticed how much I easily tend to base my faith in things of the world to defy this. If I walk down the stairs, I believe that it will maintain it's integrity and not give way causing me to fall and get injured. When I get into my car, I'm not in constant fear that it will break down. When I travel down the highway or a bridge, I'm not in constant fear that something bad will happen. In other words, we all put faith in things of this world that they won't fail us. Why can't we do the same with God? Even now, I'm still learning to switch from faith based on sight (a mental trap/prison of fear) to faith based on God's word. I've learned that I need to constantly recite to myself the Biblical definition of faith found in Hebrews 11:1. Faith that God exists is the first step in you becoming powerful (a spiritual type of superhero). Learning to exercise that faith no matter what fears/doubts/impossibilities the world throws at you is what makes you more powerful each day. See it like strength training.
God is the Force that will sustain me no matter what I go through (refer to Psalm 55:22).
Challenge yourself to distinguish yourself (be better than others spiritually) by increasing your faith in God. When astronauts look down on the earth or when a person on earth looks at satellite images of the earth, they can see cities lit up because of lights. In a similar way, when God looks down on the earth, be that beacon of light in the midst of spiritual darkness, evil and unbelief that makes Him happy. You do that by having faith in God and being righteous (not carnal minded). Be a beacon of faith and righteousness (like a spiritual lighthouse) for those who live in spiritual darkness (those who are living in hopelessness, despair/depression, and slavery/addiction to sins). When I was deciding what template to use for my blog, I came across the current one which had a black background with yellow font. Later I realized that God was inspiring me to use this template as He wanted me to share spiritual truths to enlighten those who are living in spiritual darkness. That's why you'll notice that I also tend to highlight important points in yellow font (to make them stand out from the black background which represents spiritual darkness).
Hebrews 11:1,7-11 (NIV):
"Now faith is confidence in what we hope for and assurance about what we do not see.
7 By faith Noah, when warned about things not yet seen, in holy fear built an ark to save his family. By his faith he condemned the world and became heir of the righteousness that is in keeping with faith.
8 By faith Abraham, when called to go to a place he would later receive as his inheritance, obeyed and went, even though he did not know where he was going. 9 By faith he made his home in the promised land like a stranger in a foreign country; he lived in tents, as did Isaac and Jacob, who were heirs with him of the same promise. 10 For he was looking forward to the city with foundations, whose architect and builder is God. 11 And by faith even Sarah, who was past childbearing age, was enabled to bear children because she considered him faithful who had made the promise."
Hebrews 13:5-6 (NLT):
" Don’t love money; be satisfied with what you have. For God has said,
“I will never fail you.
I will never abandon you.”
6 So we can say with confidence,
“The Lord is my helper,
so I will have no fear.
What can mere people do to me?”
Isaiah 41:10 (NLT):
"Don’t be afraid, for I am with you.
Don’t be discouraged, for I am your God.
I will strengthen you and help you.
I will hold you up with my victorious right hand."
Romans 10:17 (NET Bible):
"Consequently faith comes from what is heard, and what is heard comes through the preached word of Christ."
Ephesians 6:10-18 (NLT):
"A final word: Be strong in the Lord and in his mighty power. 11 Put on all of God’s armor so that you will be able to stand firm against all strategies of the devil. 12 For we are not fighting against flesh-and-blood enemies, but against evil rulers and authorities of the unseen world, against mighty powers in this dark world, and against evil spirits in the heavenly places.
13 Therefore, put on every piece of God’s armor so you will be able to resist the enemy in the time of evil. Then after the battle you will still be standing firm. 14 Stand your ground, putting on the belt of truth and the body armor of God’s righteousness. 15 For shoes, put on the peace that comes from the Good News so that you will be fully prepared. 16 In addition to all of these, hold up the shield of faith to stop the fiery arrows of the devil. 17 Put on salvation as your helmet, and take the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God.
18 Pray in the Spirit at all times and on every occasion. Stay alert and be persistent in your prayers for all believers everywhere."
Mark 7:20-23 (NLT):
"And then he added, “It is what comes from inside that defiles you. 21 For from within, out of a person’s heart, come evil thoughts, sexual immorality, theft, murder, 22 adultery, greed, wickedness, deceit, lustful desires, envy, slander, pride, and foolishness. 23 All these vile things come from within; they are what defile you.”
|Trust in God's promises of deliverance to you from Scripture to find peace against fears/doubts/worries/anxiety.|
|Yoda was one of the wisest and most skilled Jedi. I liked how he taught a lot of spiritual lessons to his pupils. One of those important lessons was for a Jedi to never entertain fear as it leads to the dark side.|
|Learn to see fears/doubts/worries/anxiety, lustful desires, etc. as a vicious enemy trying to destroy you. Take up your lightsaber (the word of God) to overpower these enemies in your life.|
|Don't be intimidated by fears/doubts/worries/anxiety, etc. Take them down with the word of God. Make no mistake, you are in the fight of your life! (which you have to face daily)|
|Have your lightsaber (the word of God) readily available at your side so that you can engage in battle against your spiritual enemies.|
|Only God's word (Scripture) is powerful enough to empower you to withstand the Enemy's attack.|
|Stand firm against your Enemy by using the word of God. Don't ever give in to their psychological attacks.|
Bible verse reference (just wanted to give the NLT version of Jeremiah 17:5-8):
Jeremiah 17:5-8 (NLT):
This is what the Lord says:
“Cursed are those who put their trust in mere humans,
who rely on human strength
and turn their hearts away from the Lord.
6 They are like stunted shrubs in the desert,
with no hope for the future.
They will live in the barren wilderness,
in an uninhabited salty land.
7 “But blessed are those who trust in the Lord
and have made the Lord their hope and confidence.
8 They are like trees planted along a riverbank,
with roots that reach deep into the water.
Such trees are not bothered by the heat
or worried by long months of drought.
Their leaves stay green,
and they never stop producing fruit.
The above passage is an important reminder that trusting in God is the only cure for fears/doubts/worries/anxiety. Trusting in anything else robs you of hope and put's God's curse on yourself.